My Friends

I have the best friends in the world. When Nate called off our wedding two weeks ago, my world literally came crashing down. The guy I've been head over heels for for over a year, and engaged to for 4 months no longer wants anything to do with me. Talk about a life changing punch to the stomach. It's been really hard to deal with, but I have to admit that during this all, I've realized how amazing my friends are.



First and most importantly, I've come to realize how much Jesus Christ loves and understands each one of us. He can comfort me better than anyone else because of the Atonement. He knows exactly how I feel. He knows the hurt, the heartache, the sadness, and the loneliness that I've experienced. He is truly The Comforter.



My family is pretty dang awesome as well. I really really really love my family. They're the best. My mom left to come stay with me as soon as I called her and told her the news at, oh 3:00 AM Monday morning...she stayed with me for a week. She made sure I had time to just cry it out and stay in bed, and then also get out, do some paint therapy, get a pedicure, and of course, always get me food and try to convince me that I did at some point have to eat more than just carnation instant breakfast shakes. And the boys of the family are just as awesome. They've been nothing but supportive...I love them all so much.



These girls have been my saving grace in Provo. They were some of the first to know about the break up. They've made sure that I always have something to do, and are nothing but positive support for me. They listened the morning after Nate broke my heart, and they still listen to me whenever I just need to cry it out. They are serious rock stars. Love them.

...the list of friends could really go on for a long time. I've had a lot of great friends really reach out and be an awesome support system. Bottom line: I love my friends. They have been nothing but awesome in a time that I've needed it the most :)

A Broken Heart

"And ye shall offer for a sacrifice unto me a broken heart and a contrite spirit. And whoso cometh unto me with a broken heart and a contrite spirit, him will I baptize with fire and with the Holy Ghost" (3 Nephi 9:20).

This scripture now means more to me than ever. Quite literally right now, my heart is broken. I've felt like I have nothing left to offer in life this week. My heart, the symbol of love in my own being, has been crushed. However, I have discovered more than ever in the past week that I have relied on the Lord more and more. Maybe there's a connection here...

Trust in the Lord

Life always seem to take me by surprise. Maybe it's more predictable for you, but for me, it never seems like I actually know what's around the next corner. I'm a planner. I like to have a life plan at all times; don't get me wrong, I like to have spontaneous fun, but as far as the big decisions go, I like to plan those out way in advance. So when life suddenly throws me a HUGE curveball, it's not exactly my favorite moment.

I like to try to keep a positive attitude though. Two of my favorite scriptures that get me through these moments are Isaiah 12:2 and 2 Nephi 4:34.

"God is my salvationl; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song." (Isaiah 12:2)

"Oh Lord, I have trusted in thee, and I will trust in thee forever...yea, I know that God will give liberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I ask not amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee; yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the rock of my righteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God." (2 Nephi 4:34-35)

These two scriptures are most often the first things that come to thought when unexpected (and not so welcome) surprises come my way.

As of late, one of the most important people to me in my life let me down in a huge way. It hurts, there's no way of getting around it. Yet, I know that God will never let me down as long as I trust in Him. Easier said than done though. Trusting in God that things will work out the way He intended is often times a huge pill to swallow when God's plans seem to be the polar opposite of my own. However, I've realized I have to just keep telling myself "Lord, I have trusted in thee and I will trust in thee forever."